"life does not put in front of us things that we cannot handle"

I love quotes. Especially that one. Because really, though we all end up going through some SHIT sometimes, we can do it. We just have to have hope that we can do it.

And so. Work is better. Thank the dear lord, because I was about to loose my shit. One of my coworkers said it best earlier this year: "I can handle if personal stuff is bad as long as work is okay, and I can handle work being bad as long as personal stuff is fine. But if they're both bad, it all goes to hell." So, for today, work is okay.

But personal stuff just took another shot to hell. Earlier this year, I had a big health scare and have been left with some residual health problems, but all is okay. Then the unsuccessful TTC, which really, we're only in our 6th month of so I can't really go crazy about that yet. But still a big frickin bummer when you get to Christmas where you thought you'd have a belly and not be drinking and getting gifts of bibs and sleepers and talking about next year being the baby's first Christmas. And you're not pregnant. Blah. And then, this week, we find out that Mr. M has a decently serious medical condition. Oh yeah, and the meds he was prescribed cause temporary IF. So if we want to TTC, he can't take them. So after a long conversation, he decides that he wants to TTC, so now he has to work his ASS off to get healthy without meds.

2009 has sucked. I can't wait for a fresh start in 2010. SERIOUSLY. I.CAN.NOT.WAIT.
BUT. I still need to remember that life does not put in front of us things we cannot handle. WE CAN DO THIS. We WILL do this. And we will be thankful for what we do have. Because living life being all pissed off all the time is no fun. And it will make us stronger. And we WILL have a child someday, however that happens, and we will do what we can to make him healthy, and we will enjoy each and every moment we have, because how blessed we are to be alive and have found each other.

So there.